Whats next?

I want my life back damn it. I want to go back to that day in the doctor’s office and rewind the tape - NO MIRAPEX.

I need my medication for depression that I was on before I started this drug. But I don't have health insurance anymore- everything is gone - EVERYTHING is gone because of this drug. It makes me wonder if why I continued to gamble after stopping Mirapex was because I also was going off my medication for depression – and perhaps the gambling was doing whatever to my brain the med for depression was doing – firing off my chemical imbalance??? Who knows. Just know I was triggered BIG TIME on Friday and I went to find relief.  Just hope the m-f’s who are responsible for this PAY dearly for it. Not talking about paying financially but paying emotionally – hope their lives are ruined also.

And I'm left defenseless – homeless – penniless – and in major debt. I’m exhausted and see no way out – see no way to recover. I lost the first year of my granddaughters life because of this drug -

BUT I will continue to fight…fight for what????? To live more of this shit?  Will I ever recover????   Is this it for my life and Mirapex gets the ending to it?????

This is all bullshit.  Its all bullshit.